If
I am speaking in the past
I
thank you for the love you have shown,
Had
I known it wouldn’t last
My
whole life I still would have blown.
More
insecurities cast
In
light of the love that has grown,
Its
disappearance works very fast
Taking
on a life of its own.
I
gave you my existence at the risk of creating distance
At
a time when everything unfurled,
If
the tragedy is not delicate and the delicate part is tragic
Nothing
is left of my world.
Only
if my heart wants to
Can
it attempt to block out this pain,
Don’t
expect me to rationalize
With
the rationally insane.
We
need to resolve this with patience
You
know my craziness is you,
All
my abilities practicing motion
Every
capability seems new.
I
have dug my own grave
Into
this box I don’t wish to fit,
Notice
the top is slowly closing
Every
night’s insomnia prying the slit.
I
am struggling from my end
Is
your perspective as bare?
You
are letting the incredible slip by
Something
once strong now with nothing to spare.
You
go by what you feel in the moment
I
live my life longing for your attention,
All
of the time I spend planning
How
to perfect its every dimension.
I
am prepared to bear your words
Time
is too precious to wait,
My
tears have stopped and hardened
Came
too early and yet too late.
Time
is our greatest enemy
One
month, two months, then three,
Trying
to avert my mind from thinking
You
will forget about me.
Others
with chaos around them
Are
better organized than we,
But
I will only embrace doubt when
I
no longer desire what I see.
A
dark future knows nothing
Of
our beautiful past,
Its
emptiness can never touch
What
love has captured so fast.
Must
I be forced to live
Facing
drastic changes I am not used to?
Without
you ample time will give
Everything
I can feel abuse through.
Maybe
for some reason
Our
emotional energy is acting strange,
Maybe
with more passion this season
Reluctance
will not fight change.
Maybe
what I feel in this separation
You
think is healthy,
Maybe
I see us as rich
In
your eyes no where near wealthy.
Maybe
there is a purpose
For
me to finish this book,
The
whole journey was worth it
If
you give it an attentive look.
What
I really want
Is
for us never to return from flight,
Instead
of writing in this tone
I
would prefer no time to write.
I
cannot go on like this
I
have to exhaust this feeling,
At
times when you are gone
My
daily life it is stealing.
If
only I had the power
To
manipulate the unappealing,
Fear
captures this hour
Will
not release the joy it’s concealing.
I
cannot handle the lack of daily life
Knowing
it will never give up its reign,
Only
try to revise and condense it
To
block out the routines of its pain.
I
wish today would hurry by
I
wish to end this poem fast,
For
the way I feel right now to become eternity’s lie
To
reflect on more paradise surpassed.
When
will the anatomy of love
Be
cleansed by the light of day?
Instead
of this delicate tragedy
Eating
it internally away.
The
cruelties of love
Are
tragedies unplanned,
Like
sculpting all your devotions
On
a windy day in the sand.
When
the burden becomes a must
Is
when the fascination will leave,
Like
remains of a heart’s dust
Easily
brushed off your sleeve.
If
we must say goodbye
I
will do so with grace,
Then
quietly place a bomb in my mouth
Look
away when it lights up my face.
I
am wearing agony’s crown
As
life slowly becomes the thief,
Still
the concept of love is you
And
I refuse to give up this belief.
Maybe
I am creating phantom pain
I
don’t even have yet,
How
can I rewrite this dramatic scene?
Love’s
not covered by health net.
This
purge will leave a trace
A
consumption in which I am dying
With
no direction from within
To
expose whether your love is lying.
What
fascinates me the most
Is
I still grip my end of the rope
This
massive struggle is the host
Of
all my efforts in trying to cope.
Do
you know what happens to a diamond
When
it is constantly neglected?
It
maintains its shine
Underneath
becomes dull and infected.
A
diamond in the ruff you found
For
you the sun it reflected
I
continue to shine unprotected
To
bring you more paradise unexpected.
Until
my brilliance is misdirected
It
is I who pain has perfected
If
we can just stay minimally connected
I
will believe I am somewhat respected.
Meanwhile
a tragedy developing at its own pace
It
races to the finish line
Looks
back and laughs in its own face
Running
past every warning sign.
I
set you free to explore others
Just
don’t give away your soul
As
long as my image bothers
Every
time you feel in control.
Go
ahead and set me straight
Put
an end to all that seems
Then
cruel reality and its fate
Will
take over all my dreams.
How
long will this continue?
I
am afraid to feel this way any longer
What
I saw is gone since I last seen you
I’m
afraid the pain will only get stronger.
My
longing tears open that same old wound
When
we temporarily say goodbye
I
think about you thinking about me
Never
for a moment questioning why.
When
a phone call becomes a must
My
four post bed, a four post stake,
When
you show slight interest in my trust
A
single tear becomes a crystallized lake.
Only
respect for you at this unreasonable hour
My
usual course attacks until I break,
Why
do I give insomnia so much power
I
can't sleep, my nightmares keep me awake.
Prohibited
by my love from implying
Any
existence that is fake,
Prohibited
by my honesty from ever lying
My
love will never measure how much you take.
Now
the farewell in our parting
Becomes
a prolonged breathless dive
My
persistence you are faulting
The
only reason I am alive.
My
telepathy is always exulting
Tell
me for what should I strive?
It
is love’s wound you are salting
In
this struggle it cannot survive.
I'm
lost, come help me find you
A
part of love you are afraid to encroach,
Tragedy
is the undercurrent without you
Bleeding
my heart until you approach.
Distant
whispers in your ears
Until
the day you hear me
Let
go of those fears
Only
that release will heal me.
Think
of everything we have been through
Nothing
I say can be disguised
The
wonders we have discovered
Trips
you have taken in my eyes.
All
the times I called you
And
you didn’t pick up the phone
Reached
out for you in silence
Let’s
leave that silence alone.
The
more you get to know me
You
realize I see it from above
On
my knees only for you
Only
you own the worship of my love.
I
flirt with clues I am afraid to forget
My
heart beats every detail of our past
Gives
them to my memory with sincerity
To
make every image last.
My
heart refuses to heal into mystery
This
is our world, others just live in it,
Trying
to invade the substance of our history
I
must heighten my verse to win it.
A
romance can be forbidden
But
only in the mind,
Unless
you fully release what is hidden
Reality
continues to be unkind.
Tell
me it is possible
That
will for now at least save me,
So
I can survive the upcoming months
Looking
forward to the outcome of your maybe.
Look
closer with attentive eyes
Can
you see the depth of my hope?
To
us possibility never lies
It
forces the truth to cope.
Why
is contemplating your maybe
Worth
more to me than anything certain?
Anyone
who approaches me bravely
Is
just a spectator behind your curtain.
I
am certain you already know this
Though
you can’t label your thought just yet,
Once
it collaborates with your urge to love
It
will convincingly sway it I bet.
If
I just touch one way that you feel
Maybe
my worth will liberate its magic,
Will
I dissolve its aura if I kneel?
Will
the end of our story be tragic?
Are
you making space for me in your heart?
Think
about it no need to hurry,
Take
as long as you need to reflect from the start
In
the meantime I anxiously worry.
Do
you like to get lost
In
the dream that we created?
If
we don’t reconcile at all cost
The
rest of my existence will abate it.
What
do you want me to say?
That
we shouldn’t even be friends?
Would
you rather live that way?
Missing
the insanity if this ends?
Have
I lost you?
I
need you back to get sober,
Our
future must make demands
Before
the next moment is over.
Would
you pick up the phone
If
right now I try to call?
Not
to pressure you, but to let you know
Every
such moment I want to stall.
Don’t
save the hard questions
Let
them out in excess,
They
only fine tune our commitment
As
long as the final word is yes.
Ask
me how strong my emotions are
I
have flashbacks of a possible goodbye,
When
I look away you are instantly far
This
fear of loss cannot sigh.
Every
link to a warm feeling
Brings
you into my mind,
All
my efforts at honest healing
Renders
lies that are unkind.
Maybe
you don’t realize
My
eyes are in wonder all over you,
Every
inch surveyed and idealized
I
wish you knew it can come true.
Just
the mere thought of a chance
To
lie down next to you for days,
The
mere closeness of your breath
Leaves
me peacefully grinning for days.
Do
you think of me
When
built up sentiments come due?
Give
those thoughts to me
To
gift wrap with a bow of the sun’s hew.
Nothing
can yank away
Love,
happiness, sorrow and dismay,
I
think about this disarray
With
hope hanging on to everyday.
What
meaningless activity should I start?
Perhaps
personify my car,
Because
I sat many times in it
During
the hardening of this scar.
Will
I be forced to leave love for awhile?
Replace
it with reckless fun?
A
rebellious mode without style
Of
that kind of life I want none.
Staring
at your sincere smile
A
photograph is an amazing thing,
Engraves
images of staining pain
Frightened
of what else it may bring.
I
try to place an aspect of you
Into
the new strange faces,
Knowing
this repeated behavior
Only
leaves painful traces.
If
you are not the one
The
concept of love itself will crumble,
I
know it is more than willing
To
overcome this minor stumble.
If
you are not the one
Why
is my mind pressing the issue?
Long
ago my heart joined in
I
always pity the box of that last tissue.
Each
tear generates a word
Until
the whole poem starts crying,
Will
you wade through the puddle and get wet?
Forever
will never give up trying.
We
might as well make forever our friend
It
will bring the joy that is to transpire,
Force
unintentional errors to end
The
after-effects of that is fire.
Every
time I see fire
It
reminds me of……
Well,
let’s just take from that desire
And
build up the love.
Is
it possible to fall in love
During
an exhilarating climb?
Always
moving forward and above
Sacrificing
sleep over time.
Is
it possible to emotionally climb
At
the same time physically fall?
Is
it possible to hate time?
When
you wish it would end it all.
My
expectation is in your voice
It
sees this silence as absurd,
I
hang on as if I had no choice
Longing
for attention not slurred.
I
will teach you that part of love
Is
having your comfort zone stirred,
When
your feelings are clear
At
the same time your world becomes blurred.
The
logic of control becomes incomprehensible
When
sedated by our chemistry’s potion,
Impossibilities
of love seem very sensible
When
you embrace the ambition of my devotion.
The
next time I see you
I
will greet and embrace you with paradise,
Bringing
memories of our ideal past
Only
this time ten times as nice.
I
am in love with you within our dream
I
am in love with the dream within you,
I
am in love with the happiness I have seen
Pure
heaven you have pulled me through.
Forgive
me if I love you
More
than love itself is aware,
Its
internal reflection will give you
Results
no one else can share.
I
want to give you the greed part of my love
I
want to give you the love part of my greed
I
want you to use it, abuse, don’t lose it
It
forms the basis of my every need.
An
observer of our love can write ten novels
On
what you hand me your smile with,
On
the soft caresses between us
On
how reality is a fast myth.
Here
try this one on
Another
image I can dream about,
Let
an observer try to describe
The
endless reasons I have no doubt.
I
feel spoiled when in your presence
You
are the reason my heart cares to speed,
Losing
you makes as much sense as
Missing
oxygen from the air that I breathe.
I
thank you for the dream everyday
The
one I live since I found you,
I
will not listen to reality say
I
can no longer be around you.
What
should I think and how can I say it?
What
is the password to your smile?
My
heart is the foundation and firmly I lay it
To
dress your glowing eyes with style.
My
dear soul mate, interpret your feelings
You
don’t realize what I can’t explain,
When
the music dies down
Is
when my persistence will sustain.
REASON WITH THE HEART PART ONE
Reason:
Be of good cheer sweet heart
Your future welcomes a clear
start.
Listen to me I am your reason
A massacre has occurred on
what you built,
Gain composure and perceive
the changes ahead
This lethargic feeling will
wilt.
I have observed that
relationship from the start
You have held on and on and
on,
The first logical step now
Is to accept that the other
is gone.
Don’t feel sad you could not
control the pendulum
Outside forces were at work,
Putting extreme measures on
the swings
Even as they saw me lurk.
I have decided you need
closer supervision
Now that your health comes
into play,
Before I lay down my wisdom
I will listen to what you
have to say.
Heart:
I built that pendulum and the
forces,
I knew about them before they
came,
You can act “intellectually
superior”
But know that your
baby-sitting is lame.
What do you want from me?
I will not listen to your
advice,
Before you start attacking my
emotions
With your great mind, think
twice.
There is no comparable data
in healing
It does not stem from any
knowledge I lack,
Go back and study more of my
anatomy
Before you pat yourself on the
back.
Let me give you a clue smart
one
I did not mean actually go
read a book,
When it comes to my own
intuition
I am not as stupid as I look.
I am not angry with you
For not understanding this
part,
Go fiddle with some financial
issues
These are my matters, I am the heart.
Heart:
You put the worst into its own contempt
The mind is a terrible thing to use,
Always highlighting the agony
That stands at the forefront of abuse.
Your views parallel the cruel
world
That finds many ways to judge,
Impacts the heart which then enhances
An obligation to hold a grudge.
I speak of the heart in third
person so
You can understand it is me we are discussing,
Stay focused on your own needs
Set me free from your neurotic fussing.
Reason:
I know you well
Your love is eager and ambitious,
But towards the object of your affection
I am impatient and suspicious.
It will never promote your well
being
Only internal rage leading to disease,
Then slow progression of it
To see what other symptoms it can squeeze.
Love is all about taking
chances
Don't abandon it during despair,
If you give up on it completely
Your good parts will also lose flair.
Heart:
Are you my master against self murder?
Who assigned me to your care?
You need not take responsibility
For a burden that's not your affair.
I can unintentionally destroy
our host
A lot faster than you,
Thoughts can always be fabricated
But what she is feeling is true.
Reason:
You require ample supplies of nutrients and oxygen
To maintain your optimal zest,
Your chambers smile at clear arteries
Never pausing to rest.
A healthy heart rate is
essential to your life
Without life you have nothing thereof,
You must keep fit for another that comes along
To show you the meaning of love.
You see, chemical messengers we
call hormones
Can at times be very demanding,
It seems the endocrine gland is my enemy
I wish it a violent branding.
Heart:
There you go again with anatomy
You have conquered misunderstanding,
With all of this nonsense you are telling me
It is the brain that needs a crash landing.
Show me the "true meaning
of love"
You speak of it as if you know,
I am sure some neurotransmitters now
Are conspiring in this uneven flow.
Each hour I suffer a little bit
more
Into that little a lot gets packed,
Until my emotion eats itself alive
Because it refuses to recognize this fact.
Reason:
A little rational
thought
Can bring
confidence to your battered depression,
I will discipline
this person once caught
Teach them a
thing or two about oppression.
In reality this
person doesn't love you
It is obvious
from the neglect that you receive,
I cannot feel but
even I know love
Doesn't abandon a
heart about to bleed.
The immediate
focus should be your will
All its
irregularities have come to light,
Objective sources
can instill the skill
To have practical
predictions by your sight.
Disconnect from
your separation anxiety
Rather than
struggling to cultivate its power,
You must come to
grips with reality
Your strength is
declining by the hour.
Heart:
Rational thinking
is overrated
My instincts will
imprison this mind,
Can the existence
of my love be admitted?
Truth is the
heart’s burden to find.
Remember a wise
man can understand more
About a concept
not yet known,
Than one who
proves a theorem
Which is
thereafter overthrown.
Imagine this body
we are attached to
Tripped and fell
on the asphalt,
With vision
obscurements and open sores
Drenched from
head to toe with bath salt.
Do you know about
pouring salt on an open wound?
The insanity from
it's pain’s curse?
Well the
emotional half works the same way
Except the
rotting of your body a hundred times worse.
There are two
codependent hearts involved here
Pumping blood
reciprocally when together,
If you detach one
from the other
No life left, not
even bad weather.
I must follow
internal instructions
Retrieved from
the most delicate place,
No long
verbiage-filled obstructions
I would consider
it priceless if you grant me some space.
The force of this
emptiness left in me
Decimates my
immune system without care,
If logical
thinking is to win me
That is an even
bigger scare.
So please do not
insist on a recovery
Even if you think
you can heal me,
Whether or not
you accept it
This loss is the one that will kill me.
These moments when you
capture me with your eyes
Consume my lifetime of
reflection,
Where the pleasant discomfort
of it lies
Is where its beauty
humiliates perfection.
Our love began with your
smile
And grew with my nourishing
kiss,
Being rapidly reinforced
meanwhile
Even the envy of bliss is
jealous of this.
The ways you divert our
energy
When you shyly turn your body
in defense,
I can get you to the point
where you are comfortable
With all this electricity you
sense.
This substance and its
prosperity
We must believe in now if
ever,
Anything I give you with its
sincerity
Forms the basis of our every
endeavor.
Let our fantasy get out of
hand
Our life's most powerful
magnifying lens,
Our tranquil eagerness in
flight about to land
We can anticipate then
prolong its suspense.
The palm of your hand feels
so good
Thrillingly pressed up
against mine,
If for no other reason at all
Than just to generate the
next line.
A renewed interest in every
intricate element
That takes my ambition a full
day to observe,
The beauty of it far from
perfection
That my hands will labor to
preserve.
The memory generated by this
moment
Outweighs any risk by far,
Should the dynamics of losing
you become an issue
These images will sadly add
another scar.
I want you to imagine my
reaction to regret
Before this extreme event
occurs,
If we are forced to part you
can bet
Your reaction to be
paralyzingly worse.
Whether we would cause the
loss or not
Inappropriate scrutinizing
would burst,
Our hearts' cores erased on
the spot
Leaving our everyday
irrationalities cursed.
When the sinking feeling
registers
With our “keep in touch”
phrase,
When our silent words become
slurs
And our vision a depressed
gaze.
When both of us are forced to
see
Depression smirk and raise a
toast,
As what you fear the most
Makes your whole body its
host.
When our future encounters
Are only shallow grins,
When our contemplative
harmony
No longer plays its strings.
With worn out veins and tear
stains
You figure it's just another
abandoned face,
What's worse, my next forced
interaction with another
Would only widen the hole in
my heart's place.
The only betrayal from me
would be
Writing your name in my hand,
Pulling the knife's blade
through its center
Suffering every detail of its
strand.
A handful of cloned emotion
Your sadness is a
prerequisite to my pain,
You see I could never
tolerate
The cruel tragedies of its
reign.
Can’t you see what you mean
to me?
Your lottery ticket is my
heart,
Suddenly my heart’s flair is
debris
That our goodbye instantly
blows apart.
There is no evidence of this
potential death
But in order to limit its
risk today,
This moment cannot end hold
onto my hand
Everything else the world can
whisk away.
I have to be a little crazy
It keeps me from going
insane,
I refuse every existence
outside of your eyes
Around them there is nothing
to gain.
It takes a single moment of realization
To reinforce a hundred
reasons in my mind,
Why our emotional routine has
become an investment
Why this single moment it
will always find.
Why I understand suffering to
the fullest
When I am without you for a
whole day,
Why practical realities are
the cruelest
Laughing at me every time you
can't stay.
All of our built up
assumptions
Are gaining momentum in
assessment,
What will lure this grand
transition?
Toward the ultimate emotional
investment.
Your heart will not keep its
normal rhythm
Now that my love has crawled
up inside,
Consuming you with its pride
In its existence you can
confide.
Through my writings you know
you are my soul mate
I do my best to capture how
you feel,
I hope from the silent love
you give me
You have a million more words
for me to steal.
I am the only one you can't
quite handle
My presence alters the way
you breathe,
The flame will never flicker
on our candle
Everything you want I need.
Our famous moment is indefinitely
short
We have to extend into a part
two,
Does this mean the first part
is over
Defining this continuation we
construe?
In our first moment of
complexity
Do you remember the details
of your feelings?
Take the layers and peel them
back
What's left is what you are
stealing.
Endless, never ending
What does this really mean?
Could something be true if it
is pending?
Or will it just remain our
dream.
Our dream, that looks at life
like a pair of dice
Scared to risk what is at
stake,
It builds a glass dome around
our paradise
Waiting anxiously for it to
break.
It’s like ripping up a
lottery ticket
As misfortune plays its cruel
game,
It’s like working for it your
whole life
Then throwing away all the
fame.
Imagine having it all
What an incredible notion,
But being deprived of the one
thing
That would set it all into
motion.
Imagine you and I
During our endless moment,
Then suddenly you open your
eyes
To realize you no longer own
it.
When all of my emotional
distress
Tries hard to reconcile
What distance will do to its
stress
How sorrow adds that extra
mile.
We must bring the past into
the present
Push the present into the
past,
Create some memories in
between
Ones that make sense when
they last.
Explore an area we have never
tapped before
Is there something I
overlooked?
A couple of humble requests I
implore
Can your heart ever be
overbooked?
When this moment ends the
same one must begin
To reinforce everything we
know,
Our delight will lead the way
Every segment of it will
grow.
If I say forever
Will you care for a minute?
This endless moment
I can live ten lifetimes in
it.
I cannot stop this ideal love
The truth is what is indeed,
We can stretch this moment
with greed
Until it captivates our most
basic need.
Even if I lose you
Please stay a little longer,
The impostors of the future
Will only make your image
stronger.
Every time I say your name
I smile like never before,
Then withhold myself for a
while
So later I can smile some
more.
I say your name again
thereafter
To bring my joyful tears more
laughter,
Scripting every line for you
without a doubt
You will instantly recognize
the drafter.
As I record my thoughts and
decisions
It will be easy to review,
As I pull out perfect
inspiration
From your every imperfect
cue.
Perhaps you find this
entertaining
And think what about you
keeps me hanging,
Before I met you love shied
away
And now it enjoys
assertiveness training.
I will compose a third
endless moment
If you would only stay awhile,
If you can bare it, I will
merit
All of your beauty from a single smile.
If it takes me a half hour to
write this
How long will your attention concede it?
If it takes me a lifetime to fight this
Will your emotions exceed it?
Yes, a lifetime is all I ask
for
A lifetime of your smiles,
That I can see and feel
Between temporary miles.
If you give me a signal that
might miss
Will you take time to repeat it?
If my interpretation guides our bliss
Will you hesitate to lead it?
All that is meant to be
Is introducing us to its plan,
Conquering you and me
As fate maneuvers our attention span
Now that you've felt the heaven
We pulled our paradise through,
A little fear of loss
Is convincing you too.
Should our journey end
What will I do then?
I promise you this one thing
I will never write again.
I love you more than....
I will not say how much,
An unworthy disgrace it would be
To quantify its quality as such.
The only true love
Is the one that suffers to realize its own existence
As long as I am the only one
With main access into your soul's persistence.
Touch the top of my hand
Another image to engrave in my mind,
Adding to the cherished few
Flashbacks I can always find.
Whatever true beauty is
You are the core of its basis,
Whatever true love needs to exist
It absorbs from our embraces.
In our perfect world
I will always see the way,
From this vantage point
My love will never stray.
Where the day's usual forced
activities
Are suddenly ignored,
As the focus becomes our festivities
Where your love soars much adored.
A whirlwind of enchantment
As the moment lasts it is winning,
Leaving room for passionate kisses
Next to the uncontrollable grinning.
I can stare all night
At the serenity you portray,
Through the world's mirage we have sight
Not even poetry can ever convey.
I am overwhelmed with words
That try to capture our desire,
I can write our passion on paper
That cannot wrap up our fire.
What if I got severely burned?
Then stood under boiling water,
This feeling in a pleasureful way
Is ten thousand times hotter.
Whatever form this exploration
takes
However many pieces within my heart breaks,
Your affection is requested in excess
You I will never try to possess.
Don't ever end the day
With the words see you whenever,
Because then I start counting minutes
And what those minutes will sever.
My ultimate goal in life
Your someone too good to be
true,
Give the above words loaded
meaning
Scold the dull out of the old
and the new.
I am glowing with a
revelation
I hold it in my hands,
An ability to oversee
What no one else understands.
To become enlightened
You must feel my entire glow,
Don’t look upon it and
comment
Just sit in silence and know.
When you make all your
mistakes
I will never say I knew it,
Although I foresaw the
stumble
I will always praise you
through it.
When you bowed down you lit a
fuse,
I am rose petals for you to
hold,
As always I am your muse.
Protect me from my love for
love
Show me what is really real,
Something to see when I
glance above
The times I feel the need to
kneel.
Erect a double protected fort
To block out the enemy’s
friend,
If you cure all evils of that
sort
Within me the wrong you can
mend.
My constant tendencies are
selfless
Will you give back what I
lend?
What about when I am empty
and helpless?
How much on me will you
spend?
My love for love loves you
Do you understand the concept
of free?
Whomever you befriend with
your views
Following behind will be me.
You say the sky is the limit
I look beyond the universe,
You say to fly high is to
live it
Being grounded at all to me
is a curse.
You say always try something
new
I search for the hidden
treasure,
You give a hundred and ten
percent
My efforts cannot be
measured.
You say kindness should be
spread
I have sacrificed myself to
all,
You pass advice onto others
For the worlds troubles it is
I who they call.
You say always be in control
When I am not I still get my
way,
You acquire friends to stand
by your side
Even against their own will
they stay.
You say learn from your
mistakes
I label everything a success,
You try to maintain your
composure
I make a mockery out of
stress.
You say the mind should not
be wasted
I am creating as I sleep,
You give away some
possessions
I have no materials left to
keep.
You say conquer the tall
mountains
I aim higher than my own
desire,
You say be content with the
colors of the rainbow
I will always see the arch from up higher.
If what you did does not
bring you bad karma
I will play out a scenario in
my mind,
Perhaps a bad motive on my
part
Know there are worse ways I
can be unkind.
Will you bother with the
loudness of your guilt?
Ignore it and your conscience
it will grind,
Master a delicate balance
with an apology
Forgiveness will still be
exhausting to find.
Why are you blaming my
feelings?
This is not a self-generated
sorrow,
Why are you taming my
healing?
Slowing down this agony you
made me borrow.
My heart is crazy enough to
reconcile
If you accept this ransom
note from its pain
Follow its instructions
carefully
Channels of enchantment you
will gain.
Please send me your inner
energies
And focus them on the images
in my mind,
To empower my visualization
of our future
And carve it into every dream
I can find.
You inquired about my
constant hunger
It is insanely hungry for
your touch,
Only if I am a motive for
your affection
Does the smallest gesture
mean so much.
Follow alongside my dreams
and you will
Find pleasure in the kindness
that unfolds
Remain confident in the
direction it takes you
And you will receive
everything that it molds.
My internal world throbs with
anticipation
As you warm every ounce of it
from the cold,
The beams from our burning
candle captures
More than its single flame
can hold.
Remember when you have the slightest
doubt
Always pleasantly surprised
thereafter,
I am not trying to posses any
part of you
I will do and be anything for
your laughter.
All I ask for is a single
kiss
I must convince my
persistence to be bold,
All of your doubt enriched by
my bliss
That every aspect of your
soul will behold.
Lend me a moment without
hesitation
I will build a life around
you made of gold,
A single embrace to state my
case
By this preview alone you
will be sold.
Pick any endeavor to pursue
I hold a sincere interest in
your success,
An eager massive awareness
among my senses
A simple pure love with
layers very complex.
You overwhelm my fantasies
everyday
As usual yesterday you
appeared,
Come down the red carpet
leading to my heart
For you the runway is always cleared.
The possible faults that lie
ahead of us
Seem to be weighing heavily
on your mind,
Think of what is opposite
heaven
Our future is not of that
kind.
Tell me is it mere space you
need
In order to confirm the
appeal?
Take as long as you need to
heal
Just knowing that you care
gives me zeal.
I am not a bit nervous
We are more than prepared to
take flight,
There is real perception here
feel its pressure
A slight uncertainty it is
trying to fight.
At the highest level of
luck's power
Will you be overwhelmed by it
all?
When misery tries to stall
the hour
Will you abduct gravity from
our fall?
How would you experience life
without me?
Would you welcome your last
sigh?
Would the foundation for your
fondest hopes
Be shattered by your motive
to die?
A simple question but a
complex thought
My heart eagerly awaits your
reply,
Would you return to all that
you sought?
Before you and I knew we
could fly?
We know each other the most
when we don't speak
Neither of us is a prize
seeker,
That magnetic essence between
us radiates
Somehow describing it makes
it seem weaker.
Is it the duty of fate to
keep us separated?
Using its most prestigious
device?
I will not let go of anything
anticipated
Only listen to your heart's
true advice.
Conventional wisdom is rarely
right
When it comes to the powers
of love,
It just highlights the humor
in it
Babble with analogies to
clouds above.
What kind of reality will
emerge?
It is for us to make this
choice,
All these inquiries just
strengthen my urge
I search for that intimate
link in your voice.
My compassion for you
surpasses ordinary care
Even interested in your
thoughts when you are bored,
Any slight attention my way
is fair
Just say you will never leave
me ignored.
Would you want me beyond the
vanity of it all?
Those times when I look
second best,
Do you understand me beyond
the sanity of it all?
My intellect with its
internal pest.
Not knowing is a worse
cruelty
Than overcoming
disappointment,
If this lesson turns out a
curse
I still don't regret where my
joy went.
Our flame will not die out
Face its consumption it will
not stray,
It is my legacy to pursue
what it's all about
Decide to either vanish or
stay.
I obsessively pursued you
Before my obsession even
knew,
If I obsess on this obsession
long enough
Perhaps you will reveal your
obsession too.
Without you I wear an
invisible strait jacket
Each minute making my
self-assessment stranger,
I need you to come interrupt
this sleep deprivation
Pull me away from my self-made
danger.
Nothing is black and white as
they say
Especially not the colors of
our vision,
But now that we have
conquered the gray
How about we blend all the
shades with precision.
You cannot stretch my love to
its limit
My passion for you will last
longer,
As time manipulates the
infinite
These feelings only make our
luxury stronger.
I am exceptionally passionate
today
Look out now it’s contagious,
In our progression towards
paradise
Insatiably tempted to skip
stages.
Bravely letting go of your fears
Will make more room for my
dreams,
Bring truth to the gleam in
our eyes
Our reality will become all that it seems.
Where
does our attraction lie?
When we are opposites in
kind,
Where does this attraction
lie?
This is what we must find.
You
don't care for the one famous person
I hold the utmost fondness
for,
Some endeavors that excite me
You would consider a chore.
Where
does this attraction lie?
I need a little time to
think,
Where has it planted its spy?
I am on its brink.
What
needs to happen by chance
For this attraction to
increase its score?
How else would you like to
dance?
Show me I am craving more.
Your
mood can destroy then be joy
In its moment-to-moment
swings,
I take fancy in how my laid
back nature
Calms down the waves it
brings.
Opposites
attract as they say
But where does our attraction
lie?
The chemistry will forever
sway
Between our every meeting and
sigh.
I
love how we are opposites
Even opposite of popular
belief,
If opposites attract and we
do in fact
Then my dreams foresee the
opposite of grief.
I
have an obsessive fear of the norm
In which you claim to play a
big part,
Believe me, to average you
don't conform
Where did our attraction
start?
Let’s
regress back to the beginning
When it caught us both by
surprise,
I must say the attraction is
winning
Enslaving my heart to your
eyes.
Come
help me lift off its disguise
Untangle it and point it
towards the skies,
Until we locate the source of
this attraction
Misery will continue to taunt
our satisfaction.
We
need to dream of its existence
Analyze its persistence,
Make long-term commitments
Until all this just spits
sense.
So
dream a daydream, dream a night dream
Dream within our insanity,
Dream today's theme, dream of
a light stream
Everything you are and can
be.
Dream
of our long discussions
Just lying side by side,
Especially of our attraction
And where it might reside.
There
are no factual issues
That would prevent our dreams
from living,
So our attraction can breathe
within it
And happily messenger what it’s
giving.
Always
calculating your moves
Pause after anticipated pause,
Operating on a different
level than the rest
Give it access and it will
give you a cause.
Will
forever add more for your taking
But never take when you give,
Should this end my heart
would be breaking
Away from the life it needs
to live.
I
need a life
That forgives me for not
living,
In it this attraction wants
it all
And for the all to be
compassionate in its giving.
Spray
love repellent on everyone else
I am in it for the long haul,
Something as high as heaven
can never fall
A reality not grounded at
all.
I
feel very fortunate just receiving your maybe
As long as you never say
never,
Our future is lighting the
torch to fit
The palms of every passionate
endeavor.
As
harp players start to gather
Blessing their existence in
our story,
But warning us as we climb
the ladder
That illusion might break in
its glory.
I
have no fear of this
So stop all of your shy
fussing,
About the intricate parts of
bliss
Our attraction insists on
discussing.
Everyone is someone else's
fantasy
Except for the two of us,
I dream about the way you
dream about me
And in reality that is a
plus.
I
cannot count the endless times
We just sat starring across
our lunch,
I cannot count the silent
conversations
Little by little our love
becomes a bunch.
Every moment labeled as
profound
This substance, its value and
its grace,
Bound by this love we have
crowned
That our attraction is trying
to trace.
I
know you are attracted it is true
What more do you need to see
through?
Here in my kiss is your clue
That what is brewing is long
overdue.
So
give me the opposite view
My attraction believes it is
you,
If we invert these two lines
above
The source of our attraction
becomes love.
Recognizing what is there,
Our attraction gives extra
care
Its gifts it will not spare.
It will always be your stare
There is nothing to compare,
Give me something you can
share
I need the after effects of
your flair.
If you lie down next to me
today
Will we have two separate
dreams to thread?
Or will love manifest its way
Into one dream from all that
we’ve said.
Infusing
red into everything gray
As we happily touch hands in
bed,
My infected heart will never
be okay
From the love this attraction
has spread.
What
about me keeps you around?
I want you to have all of my
soul,
What’s left of the discovery
we have found?
The raw sorcery of true loves’ control.
If I am dreaming at the
moment
I do not wish to awake,
I can reassure myself of
being certain
When I feel the passion at
stake.
This is an organized chaos
In which we must have blind
faith,
I hope our practice is
authentic
Because regrets always arrive
too late.
Is the physical world an
illusion?
Is our attraction a fact?
Then according to traditional
psychology
I should have a profound
impact.
I am a playful ambiance
To your most meticulously
crafted desire,
Carve out an image you aspire
to
The spell I cast will lift it
even higher.
My attention is never
elsewhere
Serving every inch of your
being,
As your fantasies correspond
to my gestures,
Your double vision will be
freeing.
I can stretch this passion
beyond your perception
As my devotion to you defies
time,
Always excited about our
consistency
Will never fall from this
high climb.
Once our playfulness starts
It continues until the sun
rises,
When the sun thereafter falls
I am once again full of
surprises.
You will be gracefully ringed
with flowers
As the romantic glow in me
shyly begins to share,
When your rich vibrant smile
strikes back
It carves out and perfects my
stare.
Petals between the folds of
your blanket
A continued expression of my
love,
A steamy private party to
follow
Ignited by your vision filled
shove.
My sentiments are forthcoming
To enhance and extend every
need,
Mention something once a
thousand times I hear it
In giving you love I have greed.
